Yea i remember those nites with all of you... i remember when you where just a fone call away. Yes those nites when nothing else mattered, as long as we had fun! So now i look back... but 15 years old and think of all the things i have enjoyed so far... with people who are now... GONE! No not by death, but perhaps choice. We have grown apart... i miss that, tho i am just 15 in my few years of becoming a teenager, i have had the best nites with you guys, and sometimes i miss the ones i used to chill with.
I see you online, myspace or messenger, but we dont talk. We pass in the store and it is like we r merely strangers. I wonder what happened to those "you gonna be my child god-parent" or "how about getting married the same day?". I miss those friends. I mean come on i did not think this would hit me so young, I knew i would gain and lose friends... but when i knew that would happen... i did not think it would be so soon
It is not even like we dont talk cause we got in a fight or a falling out... it is like we just dont talk. Do i try to talk to you or just let you be a missed memory? Do i let the times we had together be part of the past? I dont know what to do, I want to have you back as a friend and close friend at that for the rest of my teenage years... and so on! I wish i knew what to do. Maybe there is some sort of hard feeling... i dont know. Maybe one day you will just walk back into my life and the rest will be history. Or maybe things will never be the same : \
On the other end of the spectrum
I have gained so many friends in the past year or so... Some that i hope to cherish for life! Some who now mean the world to me and i could not live without... you know who you are!
Then there is those friends i have ad for years now... people who i love with all my heart... people who have been there.... thru the ups and the very lows... the ones that said they would be there.... and that are there... thru it all! I think i own the biggest things to you... most of you walked into my life when things were the hardest and lead me to where i am today... not saying where i am today is the best, but saying that you have been there for me. so thanks, thanks for the joys, thanks for the endless nites to come and thanks most of all for being there for the time you have... never for get you guys have been my heroes and continues to inspire me to be who i want to be... which is getting easier day by day!
So to those ones who have walked out of my life... maybe think of joining back on... i got many teenage years to come and hope to share them with you. To those who have just recently came into my life... well continue on the journey... its sure to be a good one. Finally to those of you who have been by me for years now, plzzzz continue to be right beside me... and dang it lets party!!!! Its time to life this up, time to forget the drama involved in life.
Just felt like i needed a blog headed to all those people who have molded me into the person i am... inspired me to be a better person... and gave me a life in which i can enjoy!
~Kk
( ima dork... i know)
